The Purpose Of Spokes on a Wagon Wheel and…life!

I vividly remember a lesson given in Sunday School on the importance of the spokes on a wagon wheel, how each one was as important as the next because the purpose of the spokes is to distribute the pressure evenly so that the wheel doesn’t get a flat spot and become a horrible ride for those in the wagon. For this particular lesson, each spoke represented the things that matter most in our lives and how we need to evenly distribute our time and efforts to those different things so that we don’t “get flat spots”. My spokes are loving, nurturing and supporting a wonderful husband, 9 children, 6 and 1/3 grandchildren, callings at church, service within our community, working for my son in law, raising a litter of Goldendoodle fur friends and being the best version of myself that I can be…each of those things are important to me and my well being. In the last month, some of my spokes have been getting weak and my “wheels” are off balance. I tease my family that my puppies get more attention, better meals and more money spent on them than my teenage daughters do right now…truth is, that is the truth! It’s kind of a joke around here but not one I’m happy with. I never want my family to feel second to anything in my life. This is my first time raising these beautiful babies and there are 11 of them so the task is a bit difficult. They are precious and we shed tears when the first one was born because even fur babies are little miracles in my eyes. I had an inkling but not a REAL idea of just how much of ME these littles would require. I’m not complaining because I do love them, but to say that my spokes are a little out of wack is an understatement. I am raising them with a protocol called Puppy Culture, it is a way of using socialization and positive reinforcement right from the start with these tiny little 3 week old puppies. I love the program but at 4 weeks old today, my day goes something like this from about 7 am to midnight…clean dishes from mommas night feedings and teenagers midnight snacks, feed all 3 adult dogs, grab a hard boiled egg on the run, check messages, feed puppies, clean out pen while they eat, wipe each puppy clean, put puppies back in clean pen, start a load of laundry, read some puppy culture information to make sure we are doing the right things today, introduce new toys, new environments, clean up food area, sweep floors, steam floors, put pads down for next feeding, and start the process over again for lunch, then dinner, spend a few minutes running errands and such, clean pen, finish some laundry, wash rugs and hang outside to dry, have a sleep over with a grandson, put puppies to bed and make sure mama is well, watered, fed again, and play fetch with 3 adult dogs in between there somewhere and oh, yes, the husband, the kids, the grandkids, the church callings, the service, and ME…we are just hanging out on the fringes wondering if mom will ever surface again…

Balance, the hardest part of life for me living with ADHD, I tend to hyper focus and the rest just doesn’t exist. Right now the puppies are the hyper focus and the husband and kids…they don’t really seem to exist. It’s been on my mind a lot lately as I have so many people that truly NEED me right now and I feel like I’m failing them miserably. I also believe in the Bible verse in Ecclesiastes…

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

So for now, the season is raising Beehive Fur Friends first litter and hey, if you’re looking for or know someone who may be searching for an amazing Goldendoodle, I still have 5 spots on the reservation list available. And my family and friends will appreciate you more than you can imagine! And I might get some rest~